*trigger warning*

Last night I thought about killing myself

In detail
Down to the outfit
How twisted
Still wanting to impress
Like it’d make a difference
Dead
Is
Dead.
Big question.
How?
My mind completely submerged in fog
Thinking
Bleeding out was too red,
Drowning was pain,
Hanging the same,
Maybe overdosing on my bed.
Strangely enough,
None of those brought satisfaction
Drive off a bridge.

*click*

I sat in my car.
And I didn’t drive very far.
I watched time tick.
Anxious
Nervous
Afraid
The Bridge only got closer
And the closer it got
The further I wanted to be
Although in 30 seconds I’d finally be free
Or so I thought

10 seconds

9 seconds

8 seconds

*bzzzzzt*

One last message before I lay to sleep

A meme.

Enough to remind me
Enough to help me see truth
Laughter
Excitement
Joy
Love
Hope
Light
Enough to help me forget darkness
And regain my sight.
I crossed over the bridge
Went home to my bed
And Said a final goodbye
To that voice in my head

– your average human

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